Tuesday, June 23, 2009

I have this sneaking suspicion there is a God

I have been a Christian since about halfway through high school. I believe, but I have always figured that maybe I could be wrong. It doesn’t hurt to believe, and worst case scenario, I am wrong and there is no God. No big deal I guess. But God seems to be revealing himself to me.

He keeps doing stuff like providing for me. I thought I would never be able to go to college. So when I signed up for Life Pacific, I wasn’t even remotely sure how I would pay for it. After filling out all my financial aid paperwork and even getting a few scholarships I crossed my fingers. Then one day I got a letter in the mail that itemized all the aid I qualified for and everything was paid for. I got the maximum amount of financial aid, and the rest was covered by my scholarships.

Since then, he has done it again.

My grandmother sent me a check in the mail the other day. She was worried about me because I hadn’t found a summer job yet. I have since found a job, but when the check came I thought I might be able to get away with not using it. I didn’t want to use her money if I didn’t need to.

Then I wrecked my car.


I hit this piece of metal on the freeway. It seemed like it came out of nowhere. It probably fell off of a truck, but I never saw which one. So I hit it with my front driver side wheel. It bent the wheel, tore apart the tire, and bent the bumper and wheel well guard. I pulled to the side of the freeway and no one was hurt, but I thought I had seriously damaged my car. The check my grandma had sent me a few days before was for 200 dollars. Guess how much the repairs to my car cost.


197 dollars.


So I maintain this sneaking suspicion that there may be a God. I do not want to suggest that he micromanages our lives and has everything worked out. People make mistakes, tragedies happen, and God doesn’t seem to be there. I do not have an answer for that. Still, if there is really a God, I think he might care about me. I could be wrong… but maybe I am right. Maybe there is a God… and maybe he cares about me… Have you ever had similar experiences? Am I crazy? What if I am right?

1 comment:

Me said...

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